I'm sorry for not writing again sooner. I am finding it difficult to put into words everything that I have been thinking and feeling since my last post. There have been so many things going on inside of my head and my heart since deciding to go to Belize.
I just finished up a Bible study by Beth Moore a week ago titled Believing God. In the notes for session 7 Beth says "God has assigned each generation a tremendous responsibility to its children and it's descendants. As the spiritual seed of Abraham, we are called to be far more intentional about building a heritage of faith into our children." This resonates with me.
I don't want my children to say that they are Christians just because I am. I want them to inherit relationship and passionate faith because they see that I lived it. I don't want this to be a case of "do as I say not as I do." I want to leave a clear road for my kids that they can look on and say "that's the way my mom lived, she was crazy in love with God." My goal is to show my children by example what it is to be wildly and wonderfully in love with God in such a way that it's contagious and desirable, so that it is impossible for them to walk away from it because it is such a deep part of them. This is not because I want to indoctrinate them but because I am sold out for God in such a way that it is who I am, how I want to be remembered and the legacy I am choosing to create.
In my notes from the Bible study I wrote this note to my children:
"My dear children, God has chosen you. You are a part of an amazing heritage. Your heritage
is a passionate love for God and an amazing testimony to see all saved and healed."
This is what I choose to create. This is what I choose to leave in my wake.
Love. Passion for God. Devotion. Salvation. Healing. Wholeness. Truth. Joy. Peace. Stability. Foundation. Relationship. Love for the Word of God. Excitement. Obedience. Calm. Roots.
I want the glass ceiling of my faith to become the springboard launching my children further and deeper into relationship with my God than I can even imagine possible.
This is why I am doing this. This is part of my why for going to Belize. What I do now in obedience to God blazes the trail for my children to follow. My faith paves the way for the generations that follow me to run down, to go further, do more, and best of all to experience even greater with God.
Verse 2 of this song has been beautifully dancing through my head, and that is why I'm including it. It goes:
You travel light and you travel alone
And when you arrive nobody knows
But your Father in heaven, He is glad you can go
Cause those who come after you will need the road
But your Father in heaven, He is glad you can go
Cause those who come after you will need the road
I am here for a purpose. God has told me to do this for a reason. He has placed me where I am for such a time as this.
This post has become much longer than I intended, but that is what happens when my brain is full.
Thank you all for reading this and for your support. I will try to do better about posting. Hopefully if I write more often it won't be so long. Hahaha.
Thank you all for your support, encouragement and prayers!
Heather
